i saw the sun rise this morning. well, i never actally saw the sun, only the light it created and what bounced off the clouds in pink rays. and i haven't been taking pictures, the right pictures, the pictures for me and not for class. i have nothing but simple portfolio shots. they are mostly emotionless, or contain whatever emotion i can try to describe in them. it's my apprehension, my inhabitions. so i sacrifice this page to words, which is not a waste, but not quite strong enough to be successful (in my eyes). i'm tired from caffine and longing for rest. the words aren't flowing like they're supposed to. { 2 november 2000 }